A good Martini aint easy to make........

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind is a part of ourselves; we must die in one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France

It seems that my posts tend to come late at night ...either I cannot sleep, I am just getting in or I am just off the phone with someone. Well its 11:44pm (early by my standards) and here I sit pounding out another FANTASTIC post.
If anyone in the Montgomery area had a chance to be outside this past Saturday night then you know how wonderful it was. It is not often that you will hear me comment about wonderful weather in Alabama in June but Saturday was one of those nights. The humidity was gone and you could actually sit outside without breaking a sweat. Usually around these parts that does not come until October. Some of you all are saying "OCTOBER"??? , but yeah I mean come on lets get real.
We once again tried to solve the worlds problems over "adult beverages". While not the best of ideas in some households it tends to work pretty good for us. While talking to Nick and Laura I kept coming back to something in my mind over and over again. It is something I have talked about on here before and that's ....fear. We are all trying to figure ourselves out. I know, I am 32 years old and should have a pretty good idea who I am and maybe for the most part I do know. It is just at times I think , maybe I dont want to know. Its staring me right in my face and I cant see it because I am so damn sexy HA ! But for real, I know the day will come when I will leave the job I am in now, I might move away (North Carolina or England), I might meet that women I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with BUT the mere thoughts of this make me so nervous. I am very comfortable in many aspects of my life. Therein lies the problems I think, I am too comfortable.
I took a drastic step this week when I confronted some issues head on and maybe drastic is the wrong word but it was hard for me. I am not saying its the "new jason" but it felt really good to confront the problems. It felt great to leave that sanctuary of comfort and deal with things.
I applaud those who go after what they think is "Them". It might be a new job, or a new location or maybe buying some new shorts. It makes them happy and in some way it all makes me happy. I guess I want to repay that in some weird, strange way. None of this makes any sense except to me and my feeble mind.
On a purely personnal note someone in my family took the first step this past Saturday morning towards some healing. I applaud him for it , I respect him for it and most of all I love him for it. God Bless him.