Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Halloween to everyone ...Today found me finishing up the final stuff for several costumes that the Youth are wearing tonight at the Fall Festival.
Not alot to report on the diet front today except this ...Halloween Candy is the work of the Devil, I mean really!
Fun Size Candy can do some serious damage to your diet efforts. Sure I will have ONE little bitty Snickers...and one little tiny Butterfinger....and I guess one little small Hershey bar cant hurt, Right ?
But the next thing you know you got your head buried deep in a bag of Mary Janes and no end is in sight.....
Not for me this year though ....I enjoy Halloween and have for years but this year I will stick to having an apple or two dipped in some fat free caramel. I will enjoy the smell of the pumpkin bread that I baked but will grab a Fiber One bar instead of a slice. I will have another glass of water instead of a hot cup of Hot Chocolate.
Its a broken record and you will have to tell me to shut up but things are different this time for me and there is no looking back.
So to all you ghouls, witches and goblins out there ENJOY your night ...Have a Fun Size candy bar for me ...
Happy Halloween to Everyone !! Be Safe !!
Friday, October 30, 2009
I have to work today and will be out of pocket tonight but wanted to fill everyone in on my weigh in today ...
I lost 2.5lbs after last weekend of drinking really good beer and not staying on like I should...I have to say I was VERY pleased ...It also shows me that I can go off on a weekend and relax some and have a good time and STILL BE HONEST about my points and do fine. That was a big deal for me ...a test I guess
so as of today
Total to Date Loss-35.5
So yeah ...I am happy !!
Also thanks to everyone out there who gave me feedback on the gym question. I stopped this morning after weigh in and joined Planet Fitness. For me at this time its the best thing going. For $39.99 startup and $10.00 a month with NO CONTRACT...it was a no brainer right now.
Go to their site and see all their equipment. They got A TON of stuff for a much much lower cost...So I am excited.
Halloween post coming tomorrow but till then ...
Whats your favorite Halloween candy and scary movie ?
Thursday, October 29, 2009
A quiet week here for me as far as dieting goes ....Last weekend in North Carolina I had my first beer in a long time....It was good and I enjoyed it but to be honest with you I felt pretty dang quilty afterwards. Silly ? Maybe...but it got me to thinking that I am in a different place than I once was ...
I will still have a beer from time to time and there is no pressure from any of my friends to have me drink on any level. I have made this choice and I am happy with it ...
Other Temptations ....
Food at a high school football game!!
I mean come on ...Grilled burgers that are nothing more than processed meat pressed into the shape of a hamburger patty. But oh so good....
Hot dogs....Yeah,....Mustard, kraut, little ketchup.
I have not weighed in 13 days ....Tomorrow I will go back ....I missed last week due to being in NC and this coming Saturday they are closed for some reason.
For some reason I am nervous about the beer last weekend catching up with me this week. Other wise I have been very good this week.
Fall Festival is coming this Saturday at DUMC....My costume is done and I gotta say its pretty kick butt. Pictures will be coming this weekend....
This post is all over the place tonight but its where my mind is right now ...
Yall have a great night
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I want some advice from you folks out there that read this blog....
Here is my thing...I am walking a couple of times a week. Usually about 5 times a week...I am enjoying it alot. The days I dont walk I used this small recumbant bike I have at home.
Here is my struggle...Do I start back at the gym or keep at it like I am going now.
I joined the Y back in the early spring but never got into a great habit of going....It was one thing or another that was keeping me from getting into a tight schedule but I really enjoyed my time while I was there....
I cancelled the Y at the end of the summer but am now thinking about joining back up somewhere. Somewhere I can go that adds a little variety to what I am now doing....
I will most likely be going to the gym in the morning ...I will most likely be going alone. I am cool with that since I am usually walking alone...
I dont think I will be going back to the Y.....They have too much going on there for me I think. Basketball, soccer,baseball,swimming,aerobics and on and on...
Plus its $45.00 per month for a single person. I have looked into Planet Fitness and they offer two plans
- Plan A-You pay $39.99 signing fee and then $10.00 per month. No contract. No nothing.....you get to use their equipment and locker room. Thats it.
- Plan B- You pay no signing fee but you are charged $19.99 per month with a 12 month contract. This gets you into the gym,steam room,massage chairs(forwhattheyareworth). Discounted drinks and such. Little perks.
SO what would YOU do dear reader ? Give me some feedback ...ask some questions...Speak to me ...
Monday, October 26, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Tomorrow we leave for Western North Carolina for what has been dubbed Man Weekend In The Woods.
Most of you out there know of my deep love for the hills of North Carolina. YOu know that I ache for that place when I am not there....I dream of it during the Summer. I long for it during the Fall and Winter.....
I know many of my readers out there also have a fondness for North Carolina ....You have travelled the same roads and highways. You have stopped and stayed in the same towns....
You have visited the same restaurants,shops and attractions. You have driven the Blue Ridge Parkway from Asheville to Mt Mitchell to Craggy Gardens to Blowing Rock and Boone.
And I dont mean to say that anyone out there has any less of an appreciation for the beautiful sites of counties such as Watauga,Buncombe,Avery than I do but .....
I feel at home when I cross that state line....I feel a comfort in my heart that I cannot explain to hardly anyone....I feel the strong ties to my family. The family that settled in the mountains in and around the town of Boone. The town where my grandfather was born and raised. The town I visited as a child.
I sleep well in North Carolina ....I live well in North Carolina....Tomorrow for me I go home once again...
Its just for a few days but I take what I can get. Perhaps my love would be dimished some if I actually lived there....Who knows.
Charles Kuralt wrote these words many years ago ....They eventually became a song about NC.
North Carolina is My home....Here where the Smokies rise......
Blossoms adorn the dogwood tree down on the old homeplace....
Tar on my heels feels good to me.....here in my state of grace.
Carolina raised me straight as a mountain pine. Rocked me in her cradle... Southern mother of mine.
North Carolina is my home ...Home far beyond all praise.
Goodliest home under heavens dome...here I shall spend my days
I will be out of pocket until Sunday night so the next message you get from me will be Monday perhaps....I wont weigh in this weekend since I will be out of town but will let yall know next week how I am doing.
Hope everyone has a great weekend ....Travelling pairs for the five(myself,Nick,Steve,Lane and John) of us are appreciated....
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
At one point in my life about a year ago I gave serious thought to having GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY! How did I resort to this. Could I not contain my hunger and weight gain.
Did I really think that i needed to have a surgery to monitor what I eat.
I talked to my doctor about it and he suggested I contact a doctor in Birmingham that performed the surgeries. I made the appointment and never went.
I couldn't get a surgery like that, I had to have some willpower.I knew it was deep down inside me..... I just had to pull it out.
I had someone tell me the other day that I could easily gain the weight back...and you are right I could. But I wont....You see for the first time in my life I have something more important to strive for than eating that extra piece of cake. Having that fried whatever. My life is more important than any of those things. I want to live a long life.
But heres the deal ....I like when folks tell me I might fail at this cause it gives me a new determination to show them how wrong they are going to be.
As I have said time and time before...This time its different for me....
Monday, October 19, 2009
The one thing I learned early on as a youth director is accountability.
If something goes wrong during the time you are with the kids... it is your fault.
Not only is it your fault but you need to come up with the answer to make things right real quick
Some youth directors are not successful because they do not realize how important accountability is.
They want to blame their chaperones or parents for not doing their part.
They can not take the heat, they get defensive.....the truth is, the leader is always the one who will be held liable for actions, so the issues need to be resolved.
I am pretty decentl in my job because of my accountability.I would like to think that anyway....
I will easily take the blame for everything that goes wrong while I am in charge of something.
I am was good at taking the blame until I talked about my being overweight!
Until recently, if you were to ask me why I was so overweight, I would blame everyone!
By the way, everyone includes:
- Willy Wonka
- Jack Daniels
- Aunt Jemima
- Burger King
- Mayor McCheese
- Willy Wonka (if you want)
And so many more.It was not my fault that I ate all of the food, it was society's fault.
I had to eat a lot for Thanksgiving and other holidays, I just had to!. My job as a youth director entitled me to eat as much bad food as I wanted, pizza,fried things, fast food. It allowed me to have horrible eating schedules.I was in a bad mood, so it was okay to eat a lot. I justified everything!
When I started losing weight, I was scared. Scared that bad food would be in the house. Scared that I would eat fried food at youth stuff. Scared I would stay over 350 pounds for the rest of my life.
But you know what I was finally accountable for my weight loss, and had to realize that restaurants will not go away, Uncle Ben will always be at the supermarket, and my youth will not eat the way I do.
The world will not change for me, I have to change for it. So while working at the same church and being with the same folks and being with or around food, I have lost 33 pounds so far. With Blue Bell waving to me every time I pass the frozen section, I have lost 33 pounds so far.
There are no more excuses for my health. The economy is bad.... and there will be family situations throughout my lifetime. My job will be stressfull from time to time
But, it is nice to know I will be able to deal with all of these issues because I have gotten my life back.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I hate shopping for clothes....
You see I have to shop in the big and tall stores. Or the big and tall sections of stores. The selection is limited. They cost more....and add to that I just feel like crap when I am shopping for stuff.
See here's the deal....and this is a bit of a confession for me. I want to be that cool guy who dresses really nice. I want to wear stuff that they dont sell in the big and tall stores. I want to feel good about what I am wearing.....My dad ALWAYS dressed nice. .I want to dress nice like my dad.
Some of yall are saying " but you do dress nice"....And I appreciate that but I dont dress the way I want to ...and that bothers me ....makes me sad. See when you are overweight you have to get what will fit not what looks the best.
but thats changing...
Until about 10 weeks ago I did not have an option....and while I am still going to be buying from the big and tall stores for a while I am already thinking about the day when I can go in whatever store and buy and not even consider going to the big and tall section. Right now I am going to invest in a good tailor to take some things in ...
THis all excites me ...I am excited to buy a suit for the first time in my life, well the first one since I wore a pastel suit at Easter in 1982(suprising I know). I am excited to buy nicer clothes online from a place and know they will fit and not have to send them back
This is small thing that I am excited about ...I also think I might do a Blog post series about what I am looking forward to in the future ...
Thats all I got tonight
What are you excited about today?
My apologies for not posting Friday or Saturday but both days found me pretty busy and away from the computer.
I went on Saturday to weigh in and sound that I had lost another 3lbs!!
Starting Weight-381 lbs
Saturdays Loss-3 lbs
Loss to Date- 33 lbs
Weight Today- 348.5
I am once again very proud of myself and what I have managed to do in the last few weeks. I start week Ten today and its hard to believe that 9 WEEKS have already flown by....AND getting below that 350 mark was a huge psychological thing for me ...YAY. If you ahve ever been to the doctor then you know that their scales typically only go up to 350. That was always a source of embarassment for me...Not any more!
One great problem I have already run into is my clothes are starting to not fit me right at all.
My shirts are ok but my pants are getting way too baggy. Especially in the waist and thigh area...I can pull the waist tighter with my belt but then they gather in the waist area....I dont like that....SO I either need to go see someone about having them altered or buy some new pants at least. I know when you start changing a pair of pants there is only so much you can do before the total fit and look of those pants changes.
Any suggestions from you montgomery folks as to where I should take my stuff? A good seamstress? Tailor?
Let me know
Have a great weekend
Peace and Love
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
- Today was our churches Charge Conference...Glad thats over.
- I cooked supper for church tonight. It turned out ok. Was not that pleased with the main dish but folks seemed to enjoy it.
- A former youth of mine had a really bad car accident early Wednesday morning. Looking at the car and knowing all the details about the wreck its hard to imagine that he walked away from it. But he did...has a broken nose and beat up pretty bad but hes alive. Very lucky kid.
- I have felt just kinda weird today. Just gross feeling for some reason ...not sure what it is but its there
I have a slight food addiction that I want to talk about tonight....I love Mayo. LOVE IT! Before joining weight watchers a few weeks back we could literally go through a jar in a week. No problem! Thats just bad...When i would make a sangwich ...I would put SOOOO much mayo on the bread it was sickening. But this disease only really existed at my home. I never did it much out in public. But while home...watch out Kraft and Hellmans.
Here is how bad it was at home ...I would make a sangwich and then put a huge drop of mayo on my plate to DIP the sangwich in....UGH. I would also put mayo on or use mayo in the following ways ..
- Dip potato chips in it.
- Dip fries in it.
- Put it on my steak.
- Once used it and only it to make a sangwich.
- Remember one time dipping a cookie in it to see what it tasted like.
- Wondered what it would taste like frozen.
Thats just a few of them ......after 2 months on Weight Watchers I am happy to say that the mayo consumption is WAY down. I used to use a spoon to get mayo out but now I use a knife or measuring spoon. I cant remember the last time I bought a jar of mayo ...Its been that long. Maybe two months....I still love mayo and will always use it but the using it in different quantities.
So heres my question to you tonight ......What do you have in your life that is along the same lines as my mayo addiction?
Share and let us all know
Peace and goodnight
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
A guy, whos blog i read posted something along these lines the other day and it also got me to thinking....
Dont you wish....
You could really blame fast food for your weight gain.
You could gain muscle without working out.
You never had to exercise.
A diet pill really worked with no side affects.
The media would focus on things that matter not Jon and Kate or David Letterman.
You could eat pizza and crap and it did not cause weight gain but fruit did. LOL
While we keep wishing on these things ..lets remember these things
Smart choices, courage, being happy with a .2 pound loss, confidence, some sort of fitness...These things can make your dreams come true as far as weight loss is concerned. Never forget that....
I keep it in the front of my mind at all times...
Tomorrow I am going to touch on a mild food addiction I used to have....I am in recovery now but the story bears repeating ...Till then
Monday, October 12, 2009
I do not mind sacrificing certain foods.
I know the end result....problem I have found with people and myself included is that we think that weight loss will come to them. It wont ...You have to find it and work for it ...
We will wake up, read a motivational quote on Twitter, and everything will come into play."Ohhhh, I get it now!".........Well, it is not like that.
There are hard choices. Sometimes it is not popular with your friends or family or co-workers.
It is easy to drink beer with the guys. It is hard to tell them no.
It is easy to eat your church memebers brownies. It is hard to tell someone to give them away.
It is easy to watch TV. It is hard to go to the gym day in and day out or go walking when you are tired.
This is a lifelong commitment, not something for a couple of weeks.....Anyone can lose six pounds in a week. Eat like crap five days, eat less the sixth, take off your shoes, get naked and jump on the scale on the seventh.You are not fooling anyone!
It gets easier but it is how much you put into it....... Just because you do well one day does not mean you can eat what you want the next two days.
Weight loss is funny. Just when you think you understand it, it hits you in the face.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Today was busy and to be honest with you after a long night of discussion of all things political I just dont have it in me to write a long post about all things weight loss...except this...
It makes me feel great to have an 89 year old man telling me how proud he is of me and my success so far....
I am still working on trying to decide whats the best way to post my inches lost stuff ...
any suggestions ??
More in depth stuff tomorrow night guys and gals ...I promise
peace and love
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
I have decided that I am not a fan of The Biggest Loser. But as a general rule I am not a fan of any show that has alot of yelling and cussing at folks. Its degrading. And before anyone jumps in here ...I know that being fat and overweight has its own degrading aspects but bullying someone into weight loss is not going to do it for me....
I think Jillian and Bob really mot likely have the best interests of the contestants at heart. But you have to remember they are on a game show. Its reality TV.
There are not many places you could go or many diets you could follow on your own and lose at much weight in one week. Add to that that many if not most doctors will tell you that its dangerous to be doing just that.
The producers and the directors of this show are playing for ratings....
Getting in shape is a huge deal ....eating better is a big deal ...but the only thing I see when I tune is NBC/Universal getting fatter in the bank.
If you watch only for entertainment ...then fine. If folks are watching at home thinking "Wow, Thats what I need to be doing...almost killing myself to drop my weight" Then thats scary to me ...
I will lose weight the way i am doing it now ...2lbs here ....3lbs here ...walking at night and doing some other excercise at home with what I got now. As times goes by I will add in things here and there but for Gods sake ....Dont yell at me .
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
I have my fans cheering me on.
I am thrilled to let folks know the small steps of progress I have been making ...My whole life is different and I know i might sound like a broken record
When I started this diet I had this fear that I would be missing something
I hated the thought of "depriving" myself of certain foods.Yet, I have already come to the realiazation that I have never deprived myself...not yet anyway. I am just altering the way I eat.
I have always been a "weird" eater. Ask any of my friends and they will tell you that ....I could go days without giving a thought to food. Some folks live for breakfast and look forward to lunch and crave dinner. Not me....its just a means to and end basically.
Now I am working on making changes that will be with me for life.
That is why this blog is so important to me. I need it!
I have had to forgive myself for getting to 381 pounds, but I will NEVER forget.
I will not forget the humiliation or struggles. How much I put myself through these past years as a fat man ...
The future looks bright ...
I do not need to be the most popular, just honest with myself . I am guessing I will have small victories and some disasters along the way ....but its all forward progress for me. I have stepped fully into making my life better...This is only the first step. Whats next ?? You are just going to have to stay tuned and find out....
As the late Jim Fyffe used to say " we've got out laces tightened and our eyes blackened...lets get this started"
I am thinking that Thanksgiving will be easy for me, and so will every holiday perhaps.
Every day I will work harder to excercise more and eat healthier .....Its a new me. Just going to take time to get where I want to be
But you know what ?...I have a nice feeling of peace right now about all of this and where this is all going ....
Monday, October 05, 2009
This is what I think about low fat foods. I like um....
I have had to change the way I look at food.
I have portion issues, which are better, but will never be cured.
There is a difference between eating a head of cauliflower and a gallon of "low-fat" ice cream. If you have this issue do not try to fool yourself.
I sometimes do think that one mistake might ruin me.
I hear and read about people having 8000 calorie nights with ice cream, cake and pizza. I have also seen how hard it is for them to get back on track. I can not do that. Not now, not ever.
I have had those days before and I know how hard it is to get back on track. Not again.
I know that drinking water means nothing if I eat like crap.
I know that walking for 3 miles means nothing if I eat 10,000 calories.
I have to stay on my points. If not, I will be fooling myself like I have for almost thirty-six years.
I need to do this Every. Single. Day.
I have too many people who want me to succeed. Myself included
I will not fail!
G'night all ...
Sunday, October 04, 2009
I have managed to increase the readership of my blog. I am happy about that...I am glad if someone gets something from these posts....its Great to hear that.
One of the main questions I keep getting is why now? Why Now ? WHY NOW ?
Why have I decided at this point that its time to get serious about my health....I dont know why or have ONE reason but here goes
Here are a few things....
- I felt bad.
- I struggled to sit in a airplane seat.
- The clothes I had fit tight and the closet was full of stuff I had not worn in years.
- I was scared.
- I was tired of being worried about whether or not I could sit in a booth at a restaurant.
- I want to see my nephews get older and graduate. Get Married
- I want to buy clothes in the regular section of stores. Big and Tall comes with a BIGGER pricetag
- Seeing my Dad die from a massive heart attack and stroke is not something I want to see repeated with me. I could have those genes naturally but I am going to do all I can to lower my risk and get my heart in a good place
- I looked bad.
- I was tired of feeling tired.
- I sweat alot...ugh its just gross.
- Dream to hike the AT. Part or all will do
- I have two beautiful goddaughters that will need me to spoil them with toys and books and trips to the movies.
- I got alot of living left to do
So there ya go ....just a few things ...more might be added later...
One more thing ..a few things to always remember when you are trying to survive a zombie infested America....Rule number 2-Double Tap and Rule number 3-Never trust a bathroom.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Its Saturday and I have a busy day planned....A good friend is in town and we are spending the day together doing stuff and catching up ..
Also, I have been collecting low fat/calorie recipes for the past few weeks and have pulled out a couple that I want to try. Several if not all are "fall" related....Pumpkin-Cranberry Bars, Pumpkin Squash Soup,etc. So I am excited to try out some new stuff ....
Also there is a full day of football watching to be had....
Went for weight in today and here is where I stand today
Total loss to date-26.5lbs
So a good day so far .....another thing I am going to add in the near future is my measurments. Waist, legs, chest etc. and update that on a monthly basis perhaps. I also want to start adding some pictures here and there of the results of my loss.
IN other happy news I started about two weeks ago using a belt that I ahve not used in a good long while ...and last night (friday) I had to move it down to another notch. Double Win I say ...
Have a great weekend.
Friday, October 02, 2009
“I once had an out-of-body experience on that piece of equipment.”
“Wheeww… maybe I shouldn’t have donated blood right before my workout…”
“I couldn’t afford gel insoles so I filled my sneakers with chocolate pudding.”
“Y’know, if I could be any kind of animal in the world, I’d be a mammal.”
“Skateboarding on a treadmill is more exercise than it looks.”
“I’m just curious: what’s your social security number?”
“Excuse me… do you know where this gym’s smoking section is located?”
“I did 500 virtual jumping jacks this morning.”
“Mind if I change the TV to The Incontinence Channel?”
“Wanna see me make my muscle pop up?”
“Who filled my water bottle with Milk of Magnesia? Oh wait... I did."
“I have about 8,000 songs on my iPod, but they’re all Ricky Martin’s “Livin’ La Vida Loca.”
“You know what this gym needs? A Moon Bounce!”
“Aren’t these workout gloves soft? They’re made out of human skin.”
“I’m training for a 0K marathon.”
“Wow, the women’s locker room has a lot fewer urinals than the men’s.”
“Want a piece of my garlic-onion-banana gum?”
“Excuse me, but what’s a good exercise for your headtoid muscles?”
“Man, my thong is riding up.”
“You know, when I finish my workout, I feel like a beautiful butterfly.”
“My name’s Jack, but you can call me Zsa Zsa.”
See yall tomorrow